[hunghingboy]

That freaking name brought me to my senses and all effect of alcohol went off. damn... what has she seen.

i took my phone and led W out to the living room. we sat down and i lit a cig. a moment of awkward silence.

me: dar..

W: why?

tears started to flow out of her eyes. i felt lost and i quickly snubbed out my cig and went over to W.

W: why r u having affairs outside? am i not goo enough? i know i have a bad past. but why. i already gave u M and june. i told myself i dun deserve u totally. but isn't this not good enough?

oh damn.... fucking brains... faster work for me....

me: i....

W: is it we r not good enough?

i kept silent and i was thinking what more does she know, is it only sp? or she knows more about sy, wen, susan? maybe tan and tan2. i dunno how to cover up for a lie i dunno how much she knows. my brains was gonna burst any moment and i know any ans i say now will only make things worst. for once, i was really about to admit defeat and the pain of losing them pierced through my heart.