[kengohchien]

i guess you are right. men don't choose the prettiest or sexiest one as their wives. they choose the ones they love or the ones they love most - and that may not be the prettiest/sexiest.

Emotions can be deceptive - that i agree as well. i can go without seeing him for a few days and feel like i can do without him. then sex comes back into the way and all the talking after feeling close after having sex just messes me up again.

so yes, i am a bit messed up/mixed up.

and the fact that we don't meet when i'm having my period says alot about what he really wants. which sometimes hurts.

then again, i can't be sure what i feel for him is 100% love - i think it is not - maybe i'm just having double standards.