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Originally Posted by 1231231233

Thankfully, two colleagues were talking and moving closer. That prevented me from potentially doing anything further and escalating my mistake.

I broke out of my 'tabooed but damn hot lustful' Bernice trance and picked my laptop up, told her I'd check it at my cubicle, I need to clear other work already. Before I took two steps away, she pulled my pants....

I stopped in my tracks but realised why she did so, she handed me my notebook and put my pen into my pants pocket, and also the $5 note. In that moment, I realise she was tugging my pants backwards to put the stuff in, she was looking at the arch pointing out in front of her! Oh fuck fuck fuck! I felt so turned on. I felt like... Oh goodness, I better get the fuck out of there!!

Went back to my cubicle, couldn't get my head right to work, I was still fucking hard, but started to cool down. Started realise how stupid I was, in just ONE DAY, I did so many things that would have ruined my life, leaving my laptop with her could have cost me my job if she decided to throw some stunt and steal some information (which I didn't have much doubts that she was not beneath such acts), then I got so near to some woman whom I was never even attracted to! Someone I detested so much, although there were no witnesses or whatsoever, a complain from her does nothing but shit through the fan for my career, or worse if she decided to escalate it further to authorities!

Despite all these scary thoughts and regret, yet my mind was still yearning what Bernice's breasts will look like in that blue bra! Did it have that golden floral print on it too? Was Bernice trying to confirm that I had an erection? did she feel turned on too??

After some minutes later, I realised what I had to do before I make any serious mistake that day. Headed to the secluded toilet, aimed at the toilet bowl...

fuck man... this feels so wrong, but why feel so hot.....

I tried not letting my mind wander too far... just the first fantasy, that moment when she bent to take her purse out from the drawer under her desk and behind her chair.. that image was still clear in my head, her blue skirt lifted slightly....... then me.... walking forward...... lifting up her skirt..... then..... pulled down her panties....

oh fuck.. this is so disgusting and wrong... omg.. it's Bernice! someone I never could stand, let alone erect for! nevermind, it's fine. it's just the back of her head.... my mind fantasized fucking her doggy style, just picturing the back of head.. her hair is fine... i got pissed, pulled her hair.. oh fuck it felt good... but fuck.... fuck.... fuck!!! now my mind shifted to that moment she pulled my pants... and ..... pulled me closer to her face... unzipped me.... oh fuck.. oh fuck....

Thankfully, I aimed properly in to the bowl and had toilet paper already prepared. I hated it, but I had to admit, that release felt good.

I made my way back to my cubicle and started to work. It was much better, I could concentrate, didn't feel any urge to go over to her cubicle. Fortunately also, she didn't come over to look for me. I tried my best not to think what kind of shit she may be plotting either.

Came back from another trip to the toilet, I took the longer route once more to avoid any isle parallel to her cubicle. I saw Bernice's head and half body step out of her isle to check my cubicle, saw I wasn't there, then disappeared back into her isle... I guess she needed help again? Wait, her cardigan was removed, was that a hint? It's my first time seeing her cardigan off. Also, that top was so thin, I could see the silhouette of her blue bra despite it being just a quick moment!

OH FUCK! why am I having that yearn and thoughts again.. that temptation. no no! I need to control myself. Made a daring move and left work at 4+ that day, with no legit reason whatsoever..

The rest of the evening felt more natural, I didn't have to force myself not to think about her. Basically just drove home and immerse myself in Dota 2 for many games back to back. The frustration and constant text abuses from playing with some spoilt brat kids as teammates was more than enough to take my mind off and tire myself to drop and sleep. Also, vexing to an older guy like me who cannot react in game like they can.

Morning came, I masturbated and released in fear that I'd behave illogically and dangerously later at work again. I admit, I tried to imagine someone else, but somehow, was drawn and succumbed to the sweet satisfaction of ejaculating to image of Bernice's face with my penis in her mouth, looking up at me at her cubicle.

It's just dulan and a curious lust. that's all it is!

I kept reminding myself.. Reached work and avoided her isle, reached my desk and noticed that my laptop had something done to it. Goodness, I sat down and checked, wow. She is GOOD! and smart perhaps. She was able to figure out the chaotic manner I pasted the post it note tags, it wasn't exactly as it was but she got most of them pasted back to where they were. Also, there was a small note on my table.

"Thank you so much for your guidance! and for the delightful coffee too =)"

she didn't leave her name either, there was no snack too. Ok, I don't think there was any malicious intent from her. eh fuck la... fuck fuck! why am I smiling? shit.. there was this sweet feeling, even though it was just A NOTE from her! Shook my head and sat down to work, had to concentrate! If I didn't ejaculate this morning, I'd not be able to resist the temptation to go over to her desk and see what she's wearing, mark her territory with my testicles once more... let her feel it... tempt her... perhaps.. like this morning's image... unzip me and ...

fuck man! i better stop. i don't even think she knows how to give a blowjob or what a blowjob is!

It was hard to concentrate at work, especially since I started to wonder if she's coming over to ask for help. Perhaps, things were just like back to normal like in the past just a few weeks ago.

Lunch came, I went earlier and avoided her isle again even though I was dying to see what kind of boring clothes she was wearing today.

Decided to have some comfort food, went somewhere further away, ordered my bowl with extra mushrooms veggie meat and egg.

B: mind if I join you?

i was shocked.. it was the familiar voice, kinda sweeter now. I was slurping down my fav ban mian at the tiny coffeeshop in the plaza. It was far from work. What the hell is Bernice doing here??

I nodded my head and shifted my bowl, making space for her on the rather small table.

me: oh…

B: huh?


me: never seen you without cardigan before…

B: oh. what’s wrong? this dress is a bit thick, warm ma.

me: nothing…. just…… you have lean arms….

eh fuck! why am I giving her such comments which she may label as inappropriate???

B: oh. ok…. thanks….

her reaction and words were rather dull and normal…. but her cheeks were far from normal… she was blushing. i suspected that she rarely gets praises from guys… perhaps even never ever.. she was in a plain cotton black dress, not as loose as the white top yesterday. i pretended not to look at her breasts area as when she sat down. she put her purse on her lap and started to eat.

we ate and i looked at my phone. it was awkward..

B: where are the rest?


me: at the jap place … (I know from their text in the group)

B: oh. why didn’t you join them?

me: no craving for jap. i like the ban mian here… they won’t want to come here.. too warm perhaps. i usually come alone when I have the craving.

B: oh. yup. not bad….

she nodded her head and smiled at me, then resumed eating.

fuck! i think you all know what's the problem again...

awkward silence again……

me: so how come you came down to eat today?

B: want to try something new lo….

her eyes were kept on her bowl the whole time, she avoided eye contact. she usually packs food from home daily…. extreme workaholic…

me: good choice. not bad right… how did you know about here?

I wanted to know if she stalked me or what sia. trying to get me to do more or trick me?

B: The food in this place cheapest ma, just walked around to see see. and yup… soup is very clean…………….. next time if you are coming here alone, you can ask me….

i was stunned…. she kept her gaze at her noodles….

me: ok sure…………. you don’t intend to pack food from home anymore?

B: yup. most probably not… come out and eat quite therapeutic also..

me: you feeling stressed from work ah?

B: a little bit….

WOW! thought she’’s the ambitious and SUPER GUARDED type… that was the common impression of her…. she was usually very guarded and no one has seen her vulnerable side…

me: try the diff food around here lo. your figure so slim, can afford to stress eat la…

oh fuck! what is wrong with me again! I really cannot control myself.


she didn’t choke, but swallowed a little off.. blushing even more…

i ate my noodles…

B: but not sure what’s nice around here also……

was that a hint from her?

me: just ask around lo. i can recommend also..

B: yup sure.. thank you in advance…

we ate and was quiet again... then she finally asked the question I supposed she wanted to know all this while.

B: so how's the work for boss Teo?

me : oh yeah. submitted already. no feedback or complaint from him so far, which means good work la. he's easy going.

B: ok good good...

I looked at her. she was smiling at me, there was no sort of inquisition intent or faked smile... it was sweet, damn sweet.

EH FUCK! I started to panic.

me: Ok i’m done. make my way back first ok… you know, don't want the rumour machines to have fuel.

she still had about half her bowl, she's a real slow eater. She nodded but looked a little sad...

i got up, having adjusted my pants while she was not looking earlier. she looked straight at my direction..... you know where her face was looking at. However, I didn't need to adjust, I was having natural full erections just being near her now... What the fuck is wrong with me!

i picked up my tray, gave her a side view look at her breast cup, her arm was really ok, lean. still no hint of her bra strap. but wait. eh.... something on the floor.

I put my tray down, squat down and picked up her purse on the floor which probably fell from her lap (surprised didn't hear anything earlier), and OH FUCK! her legs was crossed, I saw so much up her exposed lower side of her thigh. Bernice bent to her side as she ate, over me to see what I was doing... I didn't manage to see her zaogeng, but it was enough to get me hooked...

Bernice : oh sorry sorry! wow thanks! I didn't even realise!


she slurp down her noodles and wanted to take her purse back from me.

me : wait ah. the floor isn't clean.

I took out tissue and wiped her purse for her. She looked up at me, like speechless. she wanted to stand up to take over but I told her to finish eating.. Somehow, my guard against her dissipated completely once more, especially after her sweet smile and her thank me again when i passed the purse back to her, I sat, staring down on the floor, not knowing what to do next? try something or avoid trouble?

Bernice : thought you going back first?

me : oh yeah!

i quickly stood up, she saw that I was nervous too, but it wasn't like she was smiling out of satisfaction or anything. It was just neutral.

Bernice : hey wait, can tell me where you get the coffee yesterday? I go buy for you too.

I was shocked by her offer, and also at the same time, I could see into the arm hole of her black dress, and fuck! it was a nice shiny light grey strap, don't tell me it's silver?? our eyes met for a while, she confirm know I looked in as her body twitched a little to turn back and hide, but stopped.

me : it's quite far from here leh, go back office will be damn late.

Bernice : oh ok.. nevermind lo.

me : i go get coffee for you upstairs, meet you at the entrance in about 15-20 minutes time? might have queue.

Bernice : oh ok sure sure. wait I pass you cash.

me : nevermind later la..

my eyes fixated on her legs, somehow when she turned, the bottom skirt part was quite high up her legs. It was awkward again.

I got her coffee fast, decided to go to the toilet. While walking, I kept reminding myself how horrible she can be, and was in just weeks ago....

Most recent was that first time with her. Although it was also the first time I felt lust for her, wait, not lust, curiosity... her true colors was a huge turn off!




After we confirmed everything, I told her to go show it to boss since ‘most’ of it was ‘her work’. she was quite happy, but shocked. When she got up in a not so demure manner, perhaps because she was eager to claim most of the credit, her legs spread quick. Finally i got to see her light green pastel panties. matching to her bra strap.. she was so engrossed and eager to go show the work and didn’t even realise she fully zaogeng to me!

I went back to my cubicle, feeling a bit disgusted with myself… fuck man! why am I feeling so much lust towards this annoying plain jane!

decided to shake my head off, checked if the malay chubby milf was still online, to focus my lust on the CORRECT lady, but unfortunately, she MIA again. moments later, the plain annoying colleague walked came to my cubicle, her arms folded, the cardigan wrapped tightly around her squashed boobs.

me: how did it go?

Bernice: like that lah. he told me to email him instead, will give me (not us) feedback later.

she looked dejected, I knew what happened and why. That boss was rather obvious, he only had interest in interacting with some of his selected favourites (all ladies) in the company only. I felt a bit guilty, sending her off knowing only to be turned away quickly, especially the things she focuses on, sure to turn boss off. At the same time, I couldn’t help or stop myself from staring at her breasts shape which was so obvious from her squashed together boobs, with the extra layer of cardigan making her boobs look even bigger.

me: get used it. he’s like that…

she kept quiet, shrugged her shoulders, then left like she was pissed. Clearly not willing to accept her current ‘role’ and defeat. I looked at her back… legs were ok. no butt. skirt now over below knees.. I guess I was done with her.

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I went for lunch, walked down another isle away from Bernice’s cubicle. , saw her staring blankly at her laptop screen, like dejection.. fuck! why did I look at her chests again. she seemed to have this habit of resting her breasts on the table as she worked, then… she just had to do this..... it just had to happen when I walk by…. she put her hands on her head and leaned back on the chair in frustration….. oh fuck….. why am I still staring at her chests???? the shape was clear….

fuck fuck fuck! what was wrong with me! I forced myself to walk away, but before I could get to the door…. thought to myself, ah fuck it. no harm. Walked back to her cubicle, “lunch?”. She was shocked and surprised, but didn’t seem that happy about it either. she was very self conscious and sat up straight immediately, perhaps she saw my eyes being fixed on her breasts.. She sort of shrugged me off, saying she brought her lunch. Felt that she was rather rude actually, it wasn’t even a ‘thanks but I can’t..’

I walked off too, making sure to let her know I was pissed too. She obviously didn’t care as well.

At lunch, as much as I reminded myself to fuck her attitude, I couldn’t stop these thoughts. “maybe her talk with boss was BAD”, “maybe she thinks I am not contributing to her expectations, hence causing her to look bad in front of boss”, or worst, “she thinks I set her up to fail”……. and shit… shit! I started to imagine how she’d look topless..

What the fuck was wrong with me! She’s not even a 6. I’d give her a 5, but guys with higher expectations will give her a 4, perhaps even 3!

Head told me, just fuck care her fucking attitude, she’d come back to me to ask for help eventually.

but lanjiao foolishly led me to walk past her cubicle, where she sat and ate from her Tupperware. 

me : hey, anything I can help?

She was taken aback, looked at me as she slurped up the rest of the noodles and giving me the thumbs up in an annoyed manner, like I was disrespecting her thinking she needed help. Her attitude was much worse now, AND there was nothing to see. Her eyes naturally glanced at my bulge again, which I had adjusted before going over to make it look exaggeratedly bigger. Her skirt was high up her thigh as she sat, but she was hugging a pillow which granted no view. I remembered why I’ve always NEVER noticed her, quickly walked back to my desk. Hours later, big boss’s reply email came back, and he even CCed me in it, I saw the comments and smirked to myself, knowing how she frustrated she’d be as well. Big boss is simply resistant to the change(improvement) which she’s trying to.

5pm, I was about to pack my bag and leave.

“hey sorry. I really need your help. can you?” with an extreme change in tone, sounding nicer and sweet...
(sorry for repeating/elaborating back to the first encounter, to let ppl know how turn off she can truly be)

that was the moment her attitude changed a lot more to me for the better. Don't forget, she's just being nice cos I am 'useful' to her now!

I realise that i better ejaculate a quick one, so I won't do stupid things. The idea of cumming into her coffee came to me, but honestly, it felt more erxin (to me personally) than turn on. did consider putting some cum on the drink hole of the disposable cup though, but decided against it after cumming quickly into the toilet paper, this time not much semen. Afterall, if I want my cum on her lips, it'd be when she swallows my penis whole! Eh fuck la! why am I even thinking like that! I just cummed to imagining her in her grey/silver bra, fuck man, it looked nice!

She was already at the entrance waiting for me, checking her phone for the time I suppose.

Bernice : how much is it?

me : don't mention it la, my treat for you for helping me complete most of the grunt work. by the way, Teo texted saying he's impressed with your attention to detail.

I exaggerated a little. I was right about her, her eyes lit up, she could not even resist smiling as we walked back to the office.

Bernice : but why you tell him I helped, wouldn't he find that weird?

me : you are ok with him not knowing ah?

Bernice : yup, why not?

she answered that so quickly and naturally, I almost couldn't believe it. She's not such a good actress at all man.

Bernice : I think it's more weird that he knows I guess..

Ok, I understood why now!

Bernice : but nevermind la, not that it matters anyway...

she drank as we walked, even though I felt so much lesser lust for her at the moment after releasing most of the semen left in my tank from this morning, I kind of pitied her. No doubt she's annoying and can be selfish as fuck, but she's without a doubt the most hardworking person in our office, perhaps even the whole company.

me : follow me, let's walk this route instead and have a talk..

Bernice: where? we are late already right?

me : please la. people go back late all the time, besides if anyone can go back late without anyone daring to complain, it's you lo. You are the most committed worker and everyone knows it la.

She smiled, blushed also.

Bernice : thank you...

oh fuck! I felt hot again.... I'm really losing the battle.