My attempt at sharing my experiences...

[EnigmaofSorrow]

The new year came and went without much excitement.

I counted down by myself in my bunk with a bottle of Chivas 18, coke, and lots of ice.

I guess the only difference is that Diane and I SMS chat with each other at least twice a day since our last outing. I dread to see my phone bill when it comes.

Strangely, she is not afraid of me. Of my fear of commitment. Of my inability to treat girls nicely when I am in a relationship with them. And yet we chatted about almost everything under the sun. Our aspirations, dreams, hobbies, likes and dislikes, and even what we looked for in a romantic partner.

Diane admitted that she did not mind a guy who cherished his job more than he did his girl, as long as at the end of the day, she got to talk to him for at least ten minutes, and cuddle each other to sleep. She struck me as rather independent, and could probably function without guys in her life. She loved shopping, and treating herself to spa sessions, buying branded goods, but she did not expect her guy to pay for any of those.

In essence, she was probably the perfect girl who every normal guy would want for a girlfriend. Independent, not clingy, knows her place, and earning enough to support herself and yet lead a comfortable life.

I wondered what was stopping me.

Was I seriously so deeply in love with Shirley but refused to admit it? Did I close off my heart, mind and soul (but not my dick), to every girl I met? Some of whom could actually be good partners? For a while at least if not for life?

What about Jenny? She did say she liked me, but she was still dating/sleeping around. Or maybe that good Christian boy of hers changed her? Time and again I wanted to ask her out for our usual fuck sessions, but I held back, knowing that she was happy with whoever she was with. In any case, she did say that she would contact me if she needed anything. So I let her be.

One unexpected thing though, was a new years greeting SMS I received while I was drowning my sorrows in camp.

You readers are probably thinking it was from Shirley, and maybe she was giving me a chance at reconciliation. But sadly, it was not.

Instead, it was from Natalie, Nicole's twin sister.

I replied with a "What's up? How have you been?" but got no reply so I ignored it. Perhaps she had mistakenly messaged me. Anyway, the dirty look she gave me when I chanced upon her the last time was still imprinted in my mind.

Back to Diane, we have not actually met up again, but our conversations are not unlike a couple. Perhaps I should ask her out one of these days when I am free. If I am free that is.

Since going back to work I have been busy with preparing stores for a battalion exercise. It looks like I am gonna be revocated to a logistics job whether I like it or not.

I doubt there will be much updates for the time being, as seeing how extremely uninteresting my life is at the current point of time.

Happy New Year everyone...

[SharkAttack]

use whatsapp bro

[EnigmaofSorrow]

Originally Posted by SharkAttack

use whatsapp bro

My army phone has no whatsapp dude... Haha...

[mclovin]

hapi new yr bro thanks for the updates hope you and shirley will be ok

[Underthetable]

Bro hang in there the day will come. You have my support don't give up

[EnigmaofSorrow]

I met Diane over the weekend for dinner, at the hotpot place in Bedok.

I seriously wondered why people were willing to pay such prices for such mediocre portions, most of which were bones anyway.

Diane was simply dressed, in shorts and a spaghetti top, her ample chest proving once again to be a major distraction to me. It was rather noisy, with the usual dinner crowd, thus, we could hardly hold a decent conversation.

After dinner, she suggested going for ice cream at Simpang Bedok. Apparently there was some homemade ice cream place that opened there.

Me: Hmm. What bus goes there? 10?

D: I drove. Didn't you?

Me: My camp mate borrowed my car for the weekend. I took a bus...

D: Haha. Well, ok. I'm parked at the multi-story car park opposite.

We crossed the road and waited an obscenely long time for what was apparently the only lift that served the car park, squeezing with other couples, and families with their kids, before alighting at the roof level. I swear I caught the middle-aged man standing next to Diane in the lift drooling over her cleavage, but I chose to ignore it, since she did not seem bothered by him anyway. Of course, if he tried something funny, I probably would have broken his hand or something.

Exiting the lift, I wondered which of the many cars there belonged to Diane.

D: Guess which one's my car?

It was as though she could read my mind.

Me: Err....

I scanned the car park for any obviously female cars and found none. Apart from the usual Kias, Hyundais, Nissans, Toyotas, Hondas, Suzukis, Mazdas and various continental makes, I could not figure out which car actually belonged to her.

Truthfully, I was looking out for a small hatchback, probably in a feminine colour.

D: Well?

Me: I have no idea...

She headed towards the corner of the car park and I followed her. She stopped at a black OPC Subaru WRX.

Me: You've got to be kidding...

She unlocked the car.

Me: Ok. You aren't kidding...

D: What's wrong with a Subaru?

Me: Er. This is like a sports car...

D: Not really...

Me: Turbo-charged...

D: So?

Me: Er...

D: It's fast. But I don't speed. Usually...

Me: Why OPC?

D: My working hours are long...

Me: Right...

D: Wanna drive it?

Me: It's really your car? Your dad's? Brother's?

D: Nope. It's mine...

She tossed the keys over. I tried to act cool while catching it, but I could hardly contain my excitement. I opened the drivers door and slid into the bucket seat.

Me: Wow.

D: It came with the car. It's second hand.

Me: I see.

D: Start the engine!

I did and it roared to life.

Me: Wow.

That was probably the most powerful car I had ever had the opportunity to be behind the wheel.

D: Are you getting a hard on yet?

Me: Huh?

D: Never mind...

Me: The car's... Nice. I guess.

D: The engine is orgasmic...

Me: Hmmm...

D: Wait till the turbo kicks in...

Me: Why do you drive this again?

D: Well, I could have gotten a Jazz or something small. But there's something about this car...

Me: Are you secretly a man?

D: Don't think so... My boobs are too big...

Me: Haha.

D: Well? What are you waiting for? Let's go!

I drove out of the parking lot, negotiated the turns, and exited towards Upper Changi Road, maintaining a healthy speed limit of 60km/h while heading to our destination.

D: You drive like a pussy...

Me: What?

D: Who drives this car at 60km/h?

Me: Hey. I'm a safe driver ok?

D: Excuses.

I told her about the accident.

D: Oh. Sorry.

Me: It's ok.

D: But seriously, you can go a little bit faster...

Me: But we're almost there...

D: More excuses. Do me a favour will ya?

Me: What?

D: Stop letting the carbon buildup in my engine...

Me: Funny.

D: Show me the man you really are...

Me: There's no road left.

D: Ok Mr. Pussy.

Me: Hey.

D: What?

Me: That's not very nice...

D: The guys who drive my car usually take it to around 140km/h...

Me: Maybe they can afford the fine or loss of their license...

D: I've heard somewhere that a man's driving style is representative of what he's like in bed...

Me: So?

D: So maybe you aren't very good?

Me: Maybe I'm slow and steady, and will get you there safely?

D: I use condoms. I'm safe.

Me: Very funny.

We arrived at Simpang Bedok and I parked the car. The ice cream shop was opposite the supermarket.

D: Let's order take away. I wanna go somewhere.

Me: Er... Ice cream melts?

D: I've got an icebox in the boot.

Me: Right. Go for picnics often?

D: It's just there la... Could you grab some ice from the supermarket? I'll get the ice cream. My treat. What flavor do you want?

Me: Er. Chocolate?

D: How boring. But ok.

I headed to the supermarket to get ice and met Diane back at the car.

D: Hand over the keys pussy.

Me: That better not be my permanent nickname... By the way, what did you get?

D: It's a surprise. You'll see.

I handed her the keys and she opened the boot. I filled the ice box with ice and she dumped the ice cream in.

D: Ok pussy. Get in.

Me: Stop calling me that.

D: I'll stop when you show me how much of a man you are...

Me: Grr...

D: Growling doesn't scare me. Buckle up.

I did as told and she drove off.

The next few minutes were either going to be extremely thrilling, or extremely dangerous.

[frog69]

Bro, i'm never one to comment on stories based on my old posts if u can see, but ur story kept me up from 3am till now! awesome stuff!

U shld just create a blog and write!

[EnigmaofSorrow]

Diane sped down the road at along Expo, hitting speeds of almost 100km/h, and took the slip road onto the ECP. She hardly slowed down along the bend, taking the curve at around 80km/h. The WRX roared like the road monster it was and soon we were along Changi Coast Road, traveling at more than twice the speed limit.

Me: There's usually speed traps here...

D: Not at this time.

She pushed the car to 180. I squeezed myself into the bucket seat and silently prayed that she would not suffer a momentary lapse in judgement and lose control. At such speeds, I guess I would be lucky to get away with a broken leg if we crashed.

We passed by the ferry terminal that most young Singaporean males would be familiar with and she turned into one of the car parks. I immediately exited and lit a cigarette.

D: Had fun?

Me: That's not my kind of fun...

D: Oh come on. What's a little rush of blood to the head?

Me: Well, all the blood's rushed out of my head...

D: You're really a pussy...

Me: I think I really have some sort of allergy to dangerous driving.

D: That was hardly dangerous. The car can handle it...

Me: Still. You weren't in an accident before.

D: True.

Me: And I doubt you wanna be in one.

D: Won't happen to me. I know my limits.

Me: I hardly think so.

D: Well, I got you here in one piece right?

Me: Do you know that I still can't remember some parts of my life before the accident?

D: Memory loss is temporary. You probably blocked out the unwanted memories.

Me: Right. It's still not safe. The way you drive. You could get yourself or someone else killed.

D: Life is short. I wanna enjoy it.

Me: I'm sure there are other ways...

D: Like?

I stubbed out my stick and lit another.

Me: Like the ice cream that's melting in your ice box.

D: It's not melting...

Me: Well, there's always extreme sports if you need an adrenaline rush.

D: Nah. Not really into those kinda things.

Me: Then what do you enjoy?

D: Am I supposed to be blunt?

Me: Why not?

D: Well. I enjoy sex. Haha. The physical part of it anyway...

Me: Who doesn't?

D: True.

I felt the sudden need to deviate the conversation.

Me: Shall we grab the ice cream and retire to a bench or something?

D: Sure.

I grabbed the ice cream and we headed to a nearby bench. The cool sea breeze was refreshing.

D: So, are we gonna start seeing each othermore frequently?

Me: For what purpose?

D: As friends? Maybe go on dates?

Me: Hmm. I'll think about it.

D: How about to fuck?

Me: What?

D: I haven't had a real man for quite some time... Oh wait. You're a pussy...

Me: Very funny.

D: Well you certainly drive like one.

Me: You know my reason.

D: Well?

Me: Well what?

D: Are we gonna see each other or not?

Me: I really don't know.

D: Why did you agree to come out today then?

Me: I was bored I guess.

D: Bored? So I'm the tool to ease your boredom?

Me: I suppose.

D: Then are you gonna be the tool to ease my horniness?

Me: Are you horny?

D: When I'm drunk.

Me: Haha. Well you ain't drunk now.

D: There are other ways to make me horny.

Me: I know.

D: Then why won't you do it?

Me: I'm trying to change my ways?

D: Bullshit. Haven't you heard that a leopard doesn't change it's spots?

Me: Look. I treat you nicely now right?

D: I suppose.

Me: Who's to say I won't change if we start going out? Or even start sleeping together?

D: You were the one who said fuck buddies are different.

Me: What if I develop feelings for you?

D: Will you?

Me: I don't know.

D: Things don't have to change you know?

Me: You're Shirley's good friend.

D: So because of that I don't have the right to sleep with her ex?

Me: I don't even know if I can be considered her ex.

D: Doesn't matter anyway. Since you're so unwilling.

Me: I guess I don't want to hurt you unnecessarily.

D: How sweet. By the way, do you have a big cock?

Me: What kind of a question is that?

D: Most of the buff guys I slept with are not that big in that department.

Me: Uh huh...

D: Chinese guys don't usually have big cocks...

Me: Uh huh...

D: I slept with this Malay guy once though. He was quite sizeable. Filled me up pretty nicely. Made me cum quite a few times...

Me: Why exactly are you telling me all this?

D: I wanna know all about you.

Me: Right.

D: It's ok if you have a small dick and are embarrassed about it...

Me: If you trying to irritate me into proving a point, it's not working.

D: I'm just saying. I don't mind if your dick is small, as long as you can satisfy me.

Me: On another day, if I was my old self, I would be fucking your brains out just to prove you wrong.

D: So what are you waiting for?

Me: Like I said, on another day, if I wasn't who I want to be now. Anyway, let's eat the ice cream before it melts...

[EnigmaofSorrow]

Originally Posted by frog69

Bro, i'm never one to comment on stories based on my old posts if u can see, but ur story kept me up from 3am till now! awesome stuff!

U shld just create a blog and write!

thanks bro...

[EnigmaofSorrow]

Me: So what did you get for me?

D: Chocolate lor. And something else.

Me: Which is?

D: You try la.

Diane shoved the spoon into my mouth.

Me: It tastes... Slightly alcoholic.

D: Yeah. Got martini. Is it nice?

Me: Ok la.

D: You're really boring you know that?

Me: I don't dispute that.

D: So you only do the missionary position?

Me: How did this conversation lead back to sex?

D: Curious.

Me: Curiosity killed the cat.

D: I'm no cat. I'm a dragon...

Me: Right.

D: So how many girls have you slept with?

Me: A few...

D: How did they rate you in bed?

Me: I never asked...

D: Boring.

Me: Ya la.

D: So how long can you last?

Me: How long do you take to cum?

D: Depends on how horny I am. Sometimes five minutes, sometimes never.

Me: Well, my policy is I'll make you cum before I do.

D: Yeah right. What if I'm so good that you ejaculates prematurely...

Me: Then I'll make it hard again.

D: You sure or not?

Me: Sure la.

D: You make yourself sound like a sex god...

Me: Never said I was.

D: So do you have condoms?

Me: Nope.

D: Will you do me raw?

Me: Nope.

D: Ok.

Me: Could we stop talking about this for now?

D: Do you still love Shirley?

I paused, not know what to say.

D: Or do you still wish you were fucking your fuck buddy?

Me: Well...

D: Well?

Me: I'm trying not to be that kind of person anymore...

D: Which kind?

Me: I don't want to sleep around...

D: How does sleeping with one fuck buddy be considered as sleeping around? Unless there's things you aren't telling me...

Me: Like what?

D: You don't have one night stands anymore right?

Me: Nope.

D: Then do you go to prostitutes? Or freelancers?

Me: I don't believe in paying for sex. Even though it's merely a business transaction...

D: So why don't you want to sleep with me?

Me: Erm.

D: I'm not attractive enough?

Me: It's not that...

D: You like skinny girls right?

Me: No preference.

D: I'm not skinny enough for you?

Me: You're hot ok?

D: It doesn't feel that way...

Me: Why?

D: I'm pretty sure the guys I slept with only liked my boobs...

Me: Well, they are rather large.

D: Do you like my boobs?

Me: Er. Yes?

D: Did you like touching them the last time?

Me: Yes.

D: Do you want to suck on them?

Me: No.

D: Why?

Me: I don't want to start anything sexual with you.

D: So you don't find me attractive?

Me: Where's this leading too?

D: I don't know.

Me: You seem like you have low self esteem.

D: Yeah. I can't find a man. And now I've found one, he doesn't find me attractive...

Me: There's more to attraction than looks.

Suddenly, Diane started crying.

Me: What's wrong?

I pulled her in for a hug. She buried her head in my shoulder.

D: All my life I've been struggling with my chest size. Even in primary school they were bigger than the other girls my age. Every guy I met only wanted my body and not much else. And I gave it to each one of them, every time.

Me: And?

D: That's what I use to attract guys now. It's like second nature. But they never last...

Me: Look. You're smart, funny, intellectual and what not. I don't see why you should have trouble finding a guy. The only problem is finding the right one. Of course I find you attractive, and I would queue up to sleep with you. But I'm not that kind of guy anymore. Or at least I don't hope to be.

Diane wiped her tears on my sleeve. I brushed her fringe off her forehead and kissed it.

D: Will you be my boyfriend?

Me: No.

D: Why?

Me: The times not right. I'm not in the right state of mind for a committed relationship. And you obviously have issues with yourself.

D: You're the only guy so far who will talk to me this way.

Me: I'm a nice guy. And I want to stay that way...

D: I'm a nice girl who can be wild.

Me: I'll stick to the nice girl. I don't need your wild side.

D: Can we at least see each other regularly?

Me: I don't see why not...

D: You don't know how happy I am just talking to you.

Me: You are?

D: Yes.

Me: That's good...

Diane hugged me tightly. I stroked her hair.

D: Make me yours ok?

Me: I don't know.

This time I would take things slow.

[SharkAttack]

TS, pro la. Jia You!!! Jia You!!!

[readyletsgo]

wa bro, seriously, your stories were fantastic! there are no other words that can easily describe it. i spend day and night and killing my sleeping time despite that i have to wake up early for a long day at work the next day. i even spend my journey time, break time, etc. to finish up reading this story (i spend few days for this from pg 1 to 41!) and finally i had however, do continue to update as i look forward to your post!

if you were a writer and wrote your own book about this, i'm sure to buy!

[TamKorSang]

As usual, to prevent this thread from slipping into oblivion, I'm gonna have to ask TS to...pls continue Bro!

[Sen5eS]

New Year New Opportunities !

Keep up the stories ! SLOW and STEADY hor !

Hope there's closure with S cos D does sound very appealing (financially independant/smart/good company/easy going/willing to offer herself 2 u ... hahaha a GUY with boobs/pussy ...

Anyway ... wishing you a Happy CNY bro ... one door closes and one new one opens.

[onlyhuman]

Welcome back ts....damn ur situtation sounds exactly like mine...except I m into paid sex and nothing else...