My last day here-This is my story. AMA

[Akim3]

Bro can for sure get a chick you are satisfied with if you spend time to built and invest in yourself. Money will come, but there are other things like having a good sense of humour, self confidence etc
Thanks SBF for quick accessible fucks, spice of variety and some of the best sex encounters I ever had. It’s just a side hobby. Decision to reduce or increase depend on bros personal stage of life and what they going through themselves

[sbwow]

Originally Posted by Akim3

Bro can for sure get a chick you are satisfied with if you spend time to built and invest in yourself. Money will come, but there are other things like having a good sense of humour, self confidence etc
Thanks SBF for quick accessible fucks, spice of variety and some of the best sex encounters I ever had. It’s just a side hobby. Decision to reduce or increase depend on bros personal stage of life and what they going through themselves

Yeah man.
SBF offers so much tips.
For all we know, TS could be fucking the next hot chick in school. Piling up that body counts.

[Regretfulman]

Wah fuck. Totally lost my mind today. Relapsed and ended up rawing a FL today. As usual, felt depressed and disgusted with myself.

I suspect I have a split personality disorder - when the addiction kicks in I totally lose all sense of self control and rational thinking. All I can think about is booking ML/FL. But once the deed is done i feel fucking disgusted and cant wait to get the fuck out. Feels like im swinging from two ends of the spectrum.

If theres any bros out there who are qualified psychiatrists, am I suffering from some sort of mental disorder? Or have I just lost my fucking mind? Whats the cure/treatment?

Seems like im trapped in this vicious cycle: Addiction kicks in and relapse > feel fucking disgusted > quits for one week > addiction kicks in and relapse.

What the actual fuck is wrong with me? Anyone experts can shed some light?

[catlord]

Originally Posted by Regretfulman

Wah fuck. Totally lost my mind today. Relapsed and ended up rawing a FL today. As usual, felt depressed and disgusted with myself.

I suspect I have a split personality disorder - when the addiction kicks in I totally lose all sense of self control and rational thinking. All I can think about is booking ML/FL. But once the deed is done i feel fucking disgusted and cant wait to get the fuck out. Feels like im swinging from two ends of the spectrum.

If theres any bros out there who are qualified psychiatrists, am I suffering from some sort of mental disorder? Or have I just lost my fucking mind? Whats the cure/treatment?

Seems like im trapped in this vicious cycle: Addiction kicks in and relapse > feel fucking disgusted > quits for one week > addiction kicks in and relapse.

What the actual fuck is wrong with me? Anyone experts can shed some light?

Dude...... You need professional help. Even when I was frequenting GL I wasn't as bad as you. You're way worse. At this point I don't think you have enough willpower or personal discipline by yourself to solve this, I'm telling you you need therapy. Why would you think you'll find qualified psychiatrists in SBF? Go find a proper one. Like I said, don't be a bitch and be scared of being judged. You're not as special as you think, there's nothing you can say they haven't heard hundreds of times. Remember, whether you die a loser or a winner nobody really gives a fuck, only you can help yourself.

[Regretfulman]

Originally Posted by catlord

Dude...... You need professional help. Even when I was frequenting GL I wasn't as bad as you. You're way worse. At this point I don't think you have enough willpower or personal discipline by yourself to solve this, I'm telling you you need therapy. Why would you think you'll find qualified psychiatrists in SBF? Go find a proper one. Like I said, don't be a bitch and be scared of being judged. You're not as special as you think, there's nothing you can say they haven't heard hundreds of times. Remember, whether you die a loser or a winner nobody really gives a fuck, only you can help yourself.

Thanks for looking out for me bro. I know Im just a stranger on the internet that means nothing to you but from the bottom of my heart, thanks for all the support and help. This also goes out to all the bros out there who have supported me so far.

Right now my finances are in a pinch as Im planning two overseas trip this year. The stock market crash last year and my frequent cheonging have also depleted my savings so I doubt I can afford therapy.

But one thing I know for sure is that im an absolute trainwreck right now and Im going to take actionable steps to rectify it. I will be dialling in every facet of my life as such:

1. Daily prayers at a nearby church. Prayer has had a profound effect in making me feel better. I need to make this part of my daily routine

2. Proper sleep schedule - been very erratic the past few months

3. Daily intensive workouts of heavy weightlifting and HIIT( i have been neglecting this aspect of my life ever since I started cheonging, which has previously given me alot of structure/discipline in my life)

4. Cold showers and meditation. Found out that cold showers have helped me "snap" out of addictive phases. Meditation to help me develop self control and mindfulness.

5. Meaningful activity - will be looking to give back to the community in meaningful ways. Figured it will be better to spend my time to help those in need than to chase hedonistic destructive activities

6. Indulge in new hobbies - recently took a liking to classical music. Will be exploring how art can help me in my healing journey.


Will update my journey along the way. As usual, full transparency and accountability.

[AUDIFANSG]

Originally Posted by Regretfulman

Wah fuck. Totally lost my mind today. Relapsed and ended up rawing a FL today. As usual, felt depressed and disgusted with myself.

I suspect I have a split personality disorder - when the addiction kicks in I totally lose all sense of self control and rational thinking. All I can think about is booking ML/FL. But once the deed is done i feel fucking disgusted and cant wait to get the fuck out. Feels like im swinging from two ends of the spectrum.

If theres any bros out there who are qualified psychiatrists, am I suffering from some sort of mental disorder? Or have I just lost my fucking mind? Whats the cure/treatment?

Seems like im trapped in this vicious cycle: Addiction kicks in and relapse > feel fucking disgusted > quits for one week > addiction kicks in and relapse.

What the actual fuck is wrong with me? Anyone experts can shed some light?

Nothing wrong with you lol.... I have the same problem as u and im pretty sure most bros here do to. All i can think abt is my session with an ML and its pretty hard to turn off esp if u alrdy have a favourite. After session done will feel like shiet esp in the shower. All i can think of is how to get out asap. During the journey home will have a deep sense of regret but fastforward 1 week later will start the whole cycle over again.

[darkvlado]

Bro just yolo enjoy while u can, no regret

[sbwow]

Originally Posted by Regretfulman

Wah fuck. Totally lost my mind today. Relapsed and ended up rawing a FL today. As usual, felt depressed and disgusted with myself.

I suspect I have a split personality disorder - when the addiction kicks in I totally lose all sense of self control and rational thinking. All I can think about is booking ML/FL. But once the deed is done i feel fucking disgusted and cant wait to get the fuck out. Feels like im swinging from two ends of the spectrum.

If theres any bros out there who are qualified psychiatrists, am I suffering from some sort of mental disorder? Or have I just lost my fucking mind? Whats the cure/treatment?

Seems like im trapped in this vicious cycle: Addiction kicks in and relapse > feel fucking disgusted > quits for one week > addiction kicks in and relapse.

What the actual fuck is wrong with me? Anyone experts can shed some light?

You love to fuck.

It is nothing wrong just like someone who loves to eat chocolates. But, this is an expensive hobby which will suck you dry of your money if you aren't earning enough leaving you with little savings for retirement.

As you have included a self-rule to your own life by saying fucking a whore is wrong and you are still constantly doing it. Right now, you have fallen into a dilemma where you can't get out.

The end result would be either you get suck dry of your money OR a constant remorse after having sex with a whore and needing Jesus to save you.

Ever heard of this phrase in the bible? - Forbidden fruit is sweet
By adding this self-rule, you have worsen the condition to desire and commit it.
The only way to save yourself is to remove this self rule entirely and not think about it.

The more transparent and the more people you have to account to actually worsens the condition.
Makes me want to Laugh!

[EtherC]

No need therapists lah , get an exorcist.

[dieth1234]

If you don’t wish to go, just don’t go. That’s what I do. Of course, what works for me may not worked for you.

[Cookiee]

Originally Posted by Regretfulman

Wah fuck. Totally lost my mind today. Relapsed and ended up rawing a FL today. As usual, felt depressed and disgusted with myself.

I suspect I have a split personality disorder - when the addiction kicks in I totally lose all sense of self control and rational thinking. All I can think about is booking ML/FL. But once the deed is done i feel fucking disgusted and cant wait to get the fuck out. Feels like im swinging from two ends of the spectrum.

If theres any bros out there who are qualified psychiatrists, am I suffering from some sort of mental disorder? Or have I just lost my fucking mind? Whats the cure/treatment?

Seems like im trapped in this vicious cycle: Addiction kicks in and relapse > feel fucking disgusted > quits for one week > addiction kicks in and relapse.

What the actual fuck is wrong with me? Anyone experts can shed some light?

I have a few suggestion for u.

If you want quit and try a normal life.
Workout everyday , go to the gym and build your confidence with your body . You might meet a nice girl BUT there is no guarantee you will not book an fl again .

If you feel dirty or disgusted after going to fl , maybe u are finding cheap and low quality kind. Try go for a higher quality whom charges more and see if the experience differ from the 120 one.

Lastly , never do raw AGAIN , not worth it .

[Regretfulman]

Originally Posted by AUDIFANSG

Nothing wrong with you lol.... I have the same problem as u and im pretty sure most bros here do to. All i can think abt is my session with an ML and its pretty hard to turn off esp if u alrdy have a favourite. After session done will feel like shiet esp in the shower. All i can think of is how to get out asap. During the journey home will have a deep sense of regret but fastforward 1 week later will start the whole cycle over again.

May be common in SBF, but probably uncommon in SG. So i still think something is wrong. Knn every time regret but still keep coming back lol.

[Regretfulman]

Originally Posted by darkvlado

Bro just yolo enjoy while u can, no regret

Bro im not enjoying it. Always regret and feel terrible afterwards.

[Regretfulman]

Originally Posted by dieth1234

If you don’t wish to go, just don’t go. That’s what I do. Of course, what works for me may not worked for you.

Good for you bro. Seems like you have good self control.

[timeliness]

Don't think you're in my shoes yet.

But when I feel like going, sometimes in a bid to save some vitamin M, I'll just keep scrolling and reading threads on SBF until the FLs and MLs are past their working hours.

What works for me might not work for others, and there's some rather interesting stories here 🤣